A single moment in time can be a universe in itself.
Señor Tao (April 17, 1948 -)
I believe time does not exist in the way we think it does. It is simply a concept. It is not a phenomena, an occurrence. Things happen in time because it is the way I observed them happening. My brain is overwhelmed when it receives too many input stimuli at the same time so out of self protection it separates the events into different timeframes. Your brain is no different. Even among those who are good at multitasking, the brain has physical limits. (Personally, I am not good at multitasking. I prefer to focus on one task at a time.)
When I am experiencing an epileptic seizure time reveals itself first in slow motion, a frame at a time but outside my seizure things are still occurring at the same pace as before for everyone else. I am just experiencing the express of time differently. In each frame all the other frames also exist. Each frame is a universe in itself occurring simultaneously with all the other universes (frames). Everything happening all at once in a single moment containing all the other moments. These happenings are just perceived as separate events in different time frames. At some point during my seizure things speed up and all the timeframes move faster and faster until they combine into one. A single frame. This is when I usually pass out, overwhelmed by my perception of time and events. This is what is referred to as the big bang in science or god in religion. All possible possibilities occurring simultaneously in the same moment. Now.
If the initial big bang expands from its center resulting in the constant expansion of the universe, it means the universe had a beginning somewhere. It was born into existence. It can not therefore be infinite. It is finite like all the life created within it. Janna Levin first exposed me to this possibility.
During my school days I was taught the universe is infinite. I accepted that theory in the same manner one accepts the concept of an invisible god. During college I began too question the concept of god but until recently I never questioned the infinity of the universe. Now I realize if the universe had a beginning, a birth, then it has to be finite, or has to have always existed. Anything I can imagine has the possibility of existence, but I cannot imagine an infinite universe. Infinity cannot be imagined. In religion this is where faith comes in. We are asked to make a leap of belief and acceptance. Infinity is only a symbol which wraps around into itself. If the universe or god were created then they are also finite by time. There is no eternal time because time is only a concept created by man to enable the brain to organize events. This is what I realize during my epileptic seizures..
Philosophers, scientists and even religious clerics have spoken of the eternal now and this is it. There is no time. It is only a measurement for the brain. In my last diary entry on beliefs I said I still believe in “the endlessness of the universe.” Well, as you can see, beliefs are not absolutes and my belief in the infinite universe now resides in my box of dead beliefs along with time as a separator of events, the Easter Bunny and Santa Clause. You see how beliefs can change. That is why Buddha said,
Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it. Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many. Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books. Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders. Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations.
It is still my goal to die with no beliefs. I am getting closer to both.